This is exciting!

So as I said in my last post, I got Taking Charge of Your Fertility for Christmas. I've already read like 4 chapters of it haha. And I've learned a lot! I got set up on the website for the free tracking thing, and inputted the information I could from monthlyinfo.com. I tried to check my cervical fluid and position, but I'm not really sure what I'm looking for yet. I'm hoping they will go into a bit more detail in future chapters, but even if they don't I'm sure I will learn what is normal for me with time. I'm going to probably get my basal thermometer tomorrow.

The only issue is right now I get up at drastically different times and you are supposed to take your temperature near the same time everyday. In the weeks to come that should change though.

"There's nothing else we can do"

Those have to be the hardest words to hear from your doctor. I do feel lucky that at least I'm hearing it about a condition that isn't fatal or anything.

My androgens are high. *Gasp*, right? According to my endocrinologist the only thing they can do to help is put me back on hormonal birth control. I'm on Metformin already, which should help some. I explained how I've had bad experiences with every HBC I've been on and he suggested an IUD. Because I've totally got enough money lying around to purchase an IUD in hope that it will work and not cause even more problems. Since I didn't want to do that, he just made me a new appointment for 6 months from now. I need to get more blood work done before then to see if there are any changes (but I only have to check the androgens rather than EVERYTHING like last time).

I guess I was just hoping for more than that.

Tomorrow I have to call and make an appointment with my gynecologist since I am now on day 125 since my last period. I'm sure I'm just going to hear the HBC spiel from her too. I really hope that she'll give me some provera and it will actually work on the first cycle. Last time it took two.

For Christmas I got Taking Charge of Your Fertility, but I just started reading it today. I need to get one of the thermometers still. I'm hoping that it will help reduce some of the anxiety I feel over getting/not getting my period. I should have a better idea of whether I will be getting it or not once I've got the system down so I won't be as paranoid. And I will be able to tell for certain whether I've ovulated or not, which is kind of exciting.

A shopping win

Like I've mentioned on my other blog, I'm on some sort of mailing list for JC Penny. Twice a year or so they send me a coupon for $10 off an item $10 or more. I got one a few weeks ago and decided to use it to get a new pair of jeans for our cruise, since my favorite pair got a hole in them. =(

But i'm proud to say that I was able to get a nice pair of jeans, in size 14! This is the first time I haven't had to get a 16 in quite a while. They're stretchy, so I might have even been able to get a tight 12. However i'm glad I didn't, because after 5 days of ice cream cones and "warm chocolate melting cake", they are a little tighter than when I left lol.

But this just proves that even if I'm not seeing it on the scale, I'm doing better than I was. I've just got to keep working on it.

Me wearing my new jeans, with my husby, at the ruins of Tulum. Not the best picture to see how much I weight though, because of the shirt. Oh well.

I started out so strong.

But don't we always? No one starts out only giving 50%. No one starts out hitting a wall. And that's exactly where I am. I feel like a noob who don't know how to autorun.

I've been hovering between 175 and 185 since well, the last time I updated this, whenever that was. My next deadline is Monday, and I should be at 175 by then... but I might not be, at least not consistency. I also haven't had a real period since the end of August. I did everything I could think of (shy of taking provera) to induce one, and I did bleed a little bit, but I really can't count that. According to my tracker I'm on day 107. =/

Some of this is my fault, and I'll own up to it. I haven't taken my meds as religiously as I should ever since starting the extended release. I'm supposed to take it with dinner, but I don't always eat dinner at the same time or place. I often forget to bring it with me/take it if we are at a friend's or we go out to eat. I've tried to be better at it though.

I've also been quite stressed, and I know I gain weight while stressed. My body assumes the stress is due to drought, or floods, or being stuck on an island without the help of DHARMA or Mary Ann to make me banana cream pies. Stupid metabolism. :(

I go back to the doctor at the end of the month. Hopefully they can help me move past this.

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My poor mother...

My mother, at the age of 43, will be having a hysterectomy next week because reproductive organs and my family do not get along. She's having it done the day after we leave for our cruise, which means I probably won't get to find out how it went until we get back. Because of her age she's going to need hormone replacement therapy.